Right now I feel like giving up. I have exam this afternoon, not really afternoon, it's on 2.30pm, and I don't know anything about how I'm gonna answer the paper.
I've listed down some options in my mind, a backup plan for this event;
1. I'm just gonna go sit for the exam, answer questions that I know and wait until the invigilator said "time's up!".
2. I'm just gonna go sit for the exam, do just like the above option, but... go out early.
3. Not going at all.
The first option, people will see, it's obvious, that I wouldn't be writing anything, since I probably gonna be answering one question ONLY. Or they won't, only focus at their paper.
The second option, if I go out early, madam will find it weird, she might or might not check my answer booklet, and find out that I messing up!
The third and the last option, what a coward! This girl seriously?! Duh!
Yes I know, I should start studying right now, I mean "revising notes" rather than updating blog(?) I don't know, I feel helpless and -how do I put this- putus asa(?), down I just wanna scream, f*** this s*** (oops!) or maybe I should sleep rather than cursing at 'ilmu, God forgive me. Huhu
I'm at the bottom of my life, I guess? Next semester will be better, I'm wanna do better, I can't swear, because I never can keep a promise I made to myself, very the useless of me. But I'm gonna change my major, yeah, changing major isn't really helping, the thing is, me myself should make a change to myself, hooo! Yeah yeah, next semester, I'll do better, in shaa Allah, amin.
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